I'm looking up at the pattern of the fan spinning and thinking....where will I go next? Who will be there? And most importantly...when?
At twenty-four years old, instead of feeling young, all I can think of are the things I have yet to accomplish. My life goals and dreams infiltrate my nightly dreams. Sometimes I wake up thinking I am somewhere completely different. It gives "disorientation" a whole new meaning. But then I take a deep breath and remind myself that although I would much rather be at the destination, that the ultimate goal is to enjoy the journey for all it's worth.
No epic tales have ever skipped straight to the end, after all. It was the fight for good and evil, love and heroism. The Bridge Too Far proved to be to not too far. Indiana Jones always trolled past his fears (snakes, why'd it have to be snakes?) onto putting his great finds into museums. The encouragement that sometimes it only takes one man to change the world or that ideas are contagious. Ultimately, the thought that "to infinity and beyond" is nothing short of a regular day's work. Chivalry is not dead...and neither is the good fight for that breakthrough. That moment to truly feel alive.
I know that a lot of the entries are accounts of where I've been and what I have done and seen, but seldom is the time when I write about me....about my experience. And then it comes up, like the still small voice...a "Jiminy Cricket" for all you fellow Disney fans out there. I will quote it again and I am very sure that it is not for the last time:
"Wherever you go, there you are."
In order to experience these things in their fullest flavor, their most breathtaking colors, I need to really enjoy what it is to be me. Fortunately, I continually attempt this. I surround myself by life and love. By people who really mean it when they say it. My brother comes over with a six pack of beer to my little "matchbox" of an apartment at least twice per week, and it really reminds me of not only how much I am loved, but how often I am remembered. I always wanted to be....unforgettable.
The globe will see my footprints. I will exchange breath, and life, and love, and goals. I want to leave more than what the old adage of tradition holds. I want to be passionate. I want to have a legacy. I want to do just this. Not for myself or my conscience, but because I know that the world has always coerced human nature to do just that.
Explore, dream, create....just...do. I cannot help this fierceness in my soul. Contradictory as it is, I feel at home in this nature.
The whispers call to me from across the ocean, and they will continue to do so. Will I listen?
