Feeling Lost

People who live in the Florida Keys are mostly divided into one of two categories:  passer-throughs and stay-putters (Yes, very technical terms, I know). For me, I have noticed my attraction to the impermanent dynamics both in people, trades, and lifestyles.  The Keys, being an island, a vacation destination, and having rebellious history makes all aspects of normal life magnified times ten. The implications of that in the highs and lows are where it becomes its most evident. The extremes are bold, bright, and never-ending.

I think this means a lot for me about where I fit into the scheme of things here. It is difficult finding a real place... to feel normal, to feel myself.  In the short two months that I've been here, I've said goodbye to many, many people and friends. I realized that since I, too, am a passer-through, I will never feel "normal."  I have been finding the best aspects of people and appreciating it all for what it is...I will continue to feel comforted by things far outside my comfort zone. Thank goodness to the people here who have brought me out of my shell with spontaneity, love, and compassion.  In these moments, I feel truly alive.

Whitman said it best:

"Do I contradict myself? Very well then, I contradict myself. I am large, I contain multitudes."